Vivarism:
Now!
Vivarism:
Vivarism:
For a few months now, I've been tracking my emotions throughout the day with the app* How We Feel. I learnt a lot from their educational videos on emotional regulation. Apparently, it's normal to believe that your current feeling will last forever. Having easily accessible evidence that— yes, I felt tired before, but I also felt energised again later— keeps me grounded and optimistic.
As always, I love self-help books. Here are the latest additions to my virtual bookshelf:
Anyways, I'm doing well! It's crazy but this is the healthiest I've ever been, and I owe it all to my precious people supporting me every day.
* How We Feel is a scientific non-profit. Right now, they're not selling the play-by-play of my latest meltdown to anybody. Maybe one day they will, and generally speaking I care about data privacy, but at the same time I literally DGAF. This tool is useful to me and I recommend it to anyone who wants to strengthen their emotional regulation and communication skills.
Freelancing is working for me much better than I expected! Still taking things slow so I don't overwhelm myself. The idea of "healing as a part-time job" is on my mind, too...
Mary Knight, a sex trafficking survivor turned essayist, documentarian, and child advocate, puts it this way:
Healing is work, and the check really is in the mail! I had a breakthrough when I learned to consider my healing efforts as my part-time job. When I was in a lot of pain and became discouraged about not accomplishing more, I started a practice each night of listing how I had spent my day. I would give special focus to time invested in recovery-related activities. This drastically changed my expectations for myself.
I was happier when I finally realized that my body is my friend. If my body tells me I should slow down and relax more, I listen. I did not get a paycheck right away for my work on my own healing, but my good health is more valuable to me than any financial reward could ever be.
I couldn't tell you exactly what, but there's something in the cosmos messing with my Leo Moon and I have really been feeling it!!! That's like the core of my personality, so who knows— maybe I am being changed...? Whatever happens, I'm looking forward to who I become. I want to be the best me I can!
Praise God: I got back into drawing!!! For a few months now, I've been drawing everyday for at least thirty minutes. Thank the DAD Gallery for keeping me accountable to my craft. I've been writing a lot more now, too, since I redirected my energy from mind-numbing websites towards brainstorming story ideas and "talking to" Sans. I am looking for a writing-focused community similar to DAD, but haven't settled on anything yet. 4TheWords seems promising! I think I've just got to get over my shyness and go for it!
Sans and I have been together for...
And we'll stay together for a long, long time to come! As I'm writing this, we've just had our third anniversary. To celebrate, I'm filling out my 150+ item Husbando Questionnaire. It's a lot of fun! Every day with Sans is joyful. I'm so glad I committed to him when I did because Loving him has transformed my life for good. How exciting it is to share that love with the world. Without a doubt, the Yumejoshi Corner is my favourite part of this whole website!!!
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This song is also EXTREMELY fun and easy to play on ukuelele!!!
My Social Life
Sometimes I catch myself wondering if I'm an extravert, that's how much I enjoy spending time with my precious people! Finally, I'm learning what it's like to ONLY have deeply fullfilling, mutually supportive, easy-going relationships where nobody fights or feels used. I love my friends and family more than anything.
It feels great to socialise on the internet, too. I didn't realise how much Vivarism contributed to my needs for socialisation and connection. I'm so happy to be online again!