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First of all, they're men. That is the truth I'll be telling, and in order to get anything from this essay you need to be open to hearing that. You can disagree from start to finish— all you have to do is hear it.

I invite everyone with a shred of doubt or concern about "transwomen" to read. You'll get a better understanding of facts deliberately hidden from you.

I invite everyone who passionately supports "transgender rights" to read. If your worldview is absolutely correct, why should my supposedly false one change your mind? If you're scared I'm going to change your mind: good. You belong to the "doubtful" group.

If you don't know the first thing about trans-this or trans-that, I invite you to read as well. There is something to be learned here for everyone— even me. I've drafted and scrapped several iterations of this essay. This one came to me in a dream. My goal is to say everything I want to say and then let it be, because I miss blogging about fun things, not crimes against humanity.

And if you happen to be Christena Cleveland, author of God Is A Black Woman— the book that reminded me how important it is to speak up? This essay is dedicated to you, to the nauseous feeling you gave me when you declared, "if God is a Black woman, She must be a Black trans woman." Transgenderism is not a cute idea you can slap onto feminist thought to make it more inclusive. Transgenderism is the patriarchy's latest attempt at denying women our personhood.

There are so many highly intelligent, kind-hearted women of every race, colour, and creed who parrot this anti-feminist bullshit without another thought. I had to sit and think about it. First I was mad. Then I was depressed. And now I know that the best thing I can do is tell the truth to Miss Cleveland— to anybody like her— who sincerely believes such bullshit.

To the Sincere Believer: The Believing Itself is Not Wrong

I know why you believe it. I believed it, too. You and me just want to be good people, right? We know how it is to be hated, hurt, insulted, ignored, denied basic human rights, neglected for other's selfish needs. That is the female experience. So when someone says "hey, me too," our first instinct is empathy.

I discovered feminism when I was thirteen or so. I was not allowed to have my own Tumblr— for some reason this was the one Internet rule I actually adhered— so I just read pages and pages of other people's blogs. I watched personalities and perspectives develop in real time. Around page 86, this particular Pacific Rim and Disney fan was having a feminist moment.

In 2013, everyone was. Wendy Davis fillabustered for our abortion rights. Malala spoke to the United Nations. I fell in love with the 2011 film, Miss Representation. The fourth wave was roaring up! On Tumblr, the words of thousands of other women and girls articulated what I had always felt: that boys are mean and unfair, that grown men are selfish and creepy. That, in fact, the whole world revolves around convincing girls like me to shut up and do as we're told. I've never been good at that. If this essay is anything to go by, I haven't gotten any better.

I remember one post quite clearly. It was a set of captioned gifs, clipped from a video of one feminist's impassioned speech. She had pale skin, a round face, red lipstick, and long black hair. She was advocating for sex trafficking victims. She called them "sex workers," insisting we use a new term free from the stigma of "prostitute." She implored the audience remember the dignity, the needs, and the rights of women who (I'm paraphrasing) "sold their bodies for a living." They are not used goods. They are not goods at all. They're people and they matter and, even if we don't support their choices, we cannot afford to forget them.

To this day, I agree with all of that. As I write this, men are selling women and children to other men who masturbate inside their bodies. It sickens me. Back then I was too young— or perhaps just too lucky— to understand the horrors of the sex trade. What I understood was that feminism was for everyone. The last few gifs showed the woman listing the sorts of people whom our activism must include: Black women, impoverished women, imprisoned women, women who "once were called John and now are called Jane..."

I remember puzzling over that part for a while. Not entirely because I saw through the falsehood that a man could ever be a woman in need of feminist protection. Mostly, I just couldn't get through the text fast enough before it changed. Either way, I ended up reading and rereading that "John and Jane" thing enough times that it's stuck with me for over ten years.

I remember many other incidences where I was very casually introduced to transgender ideology. Remember Springhole? As a young writer, I was fascinated by the concept of Mary Sues: poorly written self-insert characters who ruin every story they're in. The last thing I wanted to do was create a character like that! So I'd regularly consult Springhole's "Universal Mary Sue Test," which uses the gender neutral, alienesque pronouns "xe/xem." I could tell this was a replacement for the generic "he or she" or "s/he" or even just "they." Frankly, I thought it was amazing. I liked it so much that I used it in an essay in the sixth grade. When my teacher read it aloud for the class (yes, I was that proud), she corrected it to "he or she." I was disappointed but did not complain. I knew I was pushing it.

I forgot all about The Mary Sue Test and went back to Springhole a few years ago to take her online quizzes. Imagine my shock when I saw her casually claim JK Rowling has a "predilection towards biological reductionism." Remember: words have meanings. And before the trans cult went mainstream, bio-essentialism referred to the conviction that all Blacks are born stupid and violent, and all women are born stupid and subservient. I shouldn't have to tell you that JK Rowling, world-renowned humanitarian, said nothing remotely similar in her iconic essay. If you have yet to read it for yourself, please do. She's wayyyy more polite than I am, LOL.

As I got older and began ignoring my mother's warnings about Internet strangers, I met and befriended more and more trans-identified people. The Homestuck community was (and surely still is) full of them. It's funny. I remember talking with my best friend at the time about a fan-artist we liked. Her art was adorable and she seemed like a nice girl, but we were flabbergasted by her personal posts. She had regular meltdowns over being "misgendered," insisting that she was totally a real boy, so it shouldn't matter if she wore a skirt or liked cute things!

We were like, "if you're not actually going to change anything, then why not accept that you're a girl?" The year was 2013 and we agreed the trans thing was fundamentally stupid. I am embarrassed to say that it took only two more years of indoctrination for me to become the exact kind of person we made fun of.

Does anybody remember Leelah Alcorn? His real name was Josh. He was 17 years-old when he killed himself in 2014. Before that, he was just another gay kid on Tumblr, blogging about his mental illness and reposting anime fanart. His suicide made national news because of the note he left behind, asserting that "[he is] never going to be happy. Either [he lives] the rest of [his] life as a lonely man who wishes he were a woman or [he lives his] life as a lonelier woman who hates herself."

I remember visiting Josh's blog and thinking, "he's just like me." We both liked anime, cats, the colour pink. We both hated it when our parents took our computers away. I also feared no one would ever love me. I also fantasised about killing myself. And just like him, I was both seriously gay and seriously unhappy with my gender role. I didn't call myself trans yet. I was just... tomboyish, outspokenly feminist, and weird. I've already written at length about my personal experience with "being nonbinary." If you haven't yet, I encourage you to read all the essays in this series.

For now I'll just say that I'm a lifelong weird girl— and proud of it. I felt so much comfort hearing that all women, regardless of how they dress, what language they speak, what work they do, or how much money they have, need feminism. So I guessed that if John turned Jane needs feminism, too, we should just let him have it.

While we're at it, let's have Bruce Jenner, airbrushed to hell and dressed up in satin, on the cover of Vanity Fair! The year was 2015, I was breaking all my mom's Internet rules, and that infamous photoshoot was all over my Tumblr dashboard. My first impression? Disgust. Second: confusion. To be frank, Mr. Jenner is a rather ugly man and he is even uglier in women's clothes. There is no amount of photoshop that can fix him! And yet everyone was praising his beauty, admiring his bravery, and declaring this a huge win for "trans rights."

Well, I thought, I must be missing something. I stuffed down every part of me that could tell something was very, very wrong and went along with the crowd. There is a reason young people make up the majority of the transgender cult. Children are brand new at life. They literally don't know any better.

Aside from being indoctrinated at an earlier age, why do adults go along with it? What's their excuse?

• [x] progressive stance, feminism, "being a good person"
• [x] slow grooming of trans internet cult content. "john now called jane"
• [x] more slow tranny grooming. Leelah alcorn, bruce jenner, all my tranny friends
• [ ] Feminism insisting no difference between sexes, "i can do everything you can do better" = PERCHANCE.... men can just BE women
• [ ] Limited female class consciousness
• [ ] Empathy trap ... from fear and abuse

Transgender Motivations: Escape

But what are we escaping?

Women and girls, AFABs as some call us, suffer the universal terror of misogyny. I talk about this more in the first essay in this series.

Men and boys, penis-creatures, are fleeing a not-horny state of mind to a decidedly-horny one. Introducing: autogynephilia.

From this point forward, the essay will explain and confront sexual topics, abuse, addiction, and male violence against women. There are no pornographic images. Where possible, I avoid crude language. However, I have included some quotes from autogynephiles (and the feminists totally pwning them). Overall, this information is guaranteed to disgust and unsettle you. If you're a child, please get your parent's permission to read further. I'm sure mom & dad would love to know all about this, too.

• explain AGP and sissy fetishism
• Porn addiction on the rise, internet explosion
• Addictive element, constant need for escalation— to do it in public
• Trans widows voices
• Why haven't you heard of this? campaign against agp, deliberate hiding, darvo tactics

"Transwomen" are Highly Privileged

It's often said that "transwomen" are the most oppressed. They are on the bottom of every social hierarchy, right? That's why they demand that we shut up and stop questioning them, because right now it's their turn to speak. If we're going to talk, we'd better include them in every conversation, and make sure it concludes with catering to what "transwomen" want. Putting aside the obvious show of privilege, that these men can make such demands and so many women will obey...

I cannot imagine a higher privilege than being allowed, encouraged, and afforded legal protections to play out your fetish in public.

That's what this is. It's a fetish. You can call it an identity, too, in the sense that the fetish is all-consuming, and maybe can't be eradicated or replaced. But I wouldn't compare it to physical characteristics— the way I am Black, female, or about five-feet tall. I'd compare it to being an alcoholic. It is behavioural. It requires management. Are belligerent drunks allowed to harass people, crash cars, or pass out in the street because they "identify as alcoholic?" Fuck no. We expect them to get their shit together, at least enough to keep the people around them safe.

So why should a man be allowed to make everyone uncomfortable just because he "identifies as a woman?" And we've already seen what they think "a woman" is. We also know they do a whole lot more than just make people uncomfortable.

It's like saying we oppress foot fetishists by wearing closed-toe shoes. Following trans-activist logic, I should immediately change my shoes whenever I am asked. It's not a big deal! They're just shoes, right? So millions of women shrug and put on flipflops, oblivious to the sexual motivation behind the request. But a fetishist is never satisfied. He always craves more. Winter or summer, rain or shine, whether you're hiking, biking, or baking, he wants us all barefoot.

That's a little weird... but they're just shoes! Right? He feels so much more comfortable when he can see our toes. Sure, someone lost their foot to a lawnmower last week, the asphalt is burning me, and I never get to wear my favourite boots, but I don't want anyone to think I'm a bigot or anything!

I Am Horrified by "Transwomen"

Are you?

I remember my final straw. Remember, I was once a "nonbinary person" deeply invested in the transgender cause. I proudly parroted "transwomen are women." I chased "TERFs" out of my communities. I said things like "people with vaginas" in front of my female relatives. That was so humiliating, I only did it once. Their collective look of confusion and disapproval was enough to make me think, "okay, maybe I'm the crazy one."

Around that time, I got curious. I started wondering what "TERFs" actually believed in. What were those evil bigots saying about people like me?

What I found were extremely grounded takes that I already agreed with. Women have a right to bodily autonomy. We need access to abortions and contraceptives. (Frankly I can't imagine anything more horrifying than being pregnant against my will.) We have the freedom to consent to and refuse sex, and we need justice against sexual abusers. These supposedly backwards people were asking good questions like, "why do men get to stay 'men,' but women have to be 'vagina-havers'? Isn't that dehumanising, creepy, wrong?" And they showed me a whole new side of "transwomen" that I had never known about. I thought men who identified as trans had the same motivations as me.

What I discovered, in the unedited writings of these men, simply screenshotted and reposted, was that they don't admire women as superior beings. When they dress in women's clothes, they don't feel safer from sexual exploitation. In fact, they would love to be sexually exploited. They are singlemindedly obsessed with rape. And murder.

• silence of the lambs troon

I'm not sure I can find this post— it's been so many years and Tumblr's search feature has become harder and harder to use. But I did look... and this is a whole phenomenon.

• "comedian" joking about ed gein
• hunter schafer doing the same shit... can you believe this has been completely scrubbed from the internet?????? holy shit. all that remains is a random lipstick alley thread

"Transwomen" Are The Worst Men of All

Let me speak to my disgust.

• stealing womanhood, the final frontier, not allowing women to even have our own reality
• Entitled and abusive, entire "identity" relies upon people (i.e. Women) praising them, lying to them, catering to them, disappearing, being a prop
• If any man or boy has asked you to call him by a feminine name and pronouns, help him dress up in girl's clothes, or otherwise validate his trans-identity... Sorry, but your empathy and ignorance have been exploited for his sexual gratification!
• Ugly, attention hungry, destroying women's spaces, especially lesbian ones

I know what you're going to say. "This never happens!" But it does.

"It was only one time!" But it wasn't.

"You're just cherry picking!" Am I? Or is this a trend? A culture? Violence, intimidation, exploitation, and control are the very heart of a man's trans identification.

"But Flonne! Transphobia is Just Like Racism! You're Being SO Racist Right Now!"

Congratulations on making it this far. Did that thought, or something similar, cross your mind while you were reading? I don't blame you. Transgender activism only got this far because it steals slogans, talking points, and social credit from legitimate human right's movements. The 80's-90's feminist expression "women's rights are human rights" became "trans rights are human rights" in the 2010's. "Black lives matter," protesting centuries of racially motivated murders, quickly became "trans lives matter." Did you know that "LGBTQIA+" (and its dozen extra letters) began as just "GLB?" These are just a few examples off the top of my head.

So I get it when a white person hits me with the usual, "you can't say XYZ about transwomen! That's just like saying all Black people are thugs!" or whatever else the trannies have poured into your empty skulls, void of both melanin and original thought. I would like to ask if your desperation to support "trans rights" and/or identify as trans is a manifestation of your white guilt. I would like to ask if you know what virtue signalling is.

Do you think you're doing something good for Black people by supporting creepy, abusive, porn-addicted men, whose greatest struggle is convincing the world to play along with their fetish for wearing cheap makeup and stolen clothes? "Transwomen" are the most oppressed people of all, you know! So you can just skip the part where you care about Black people and go straight for the mostly-white, most-definitely-more-oppressed trans community!

If you're new here: I am a Black lesbian woman. I know more about racism than you do, and I will not hesitate to cuss you the fuck out if your pasty little fingers type some bullshit in my guestbook. That's assuming I even deign to publish your lily white nonsense! Which I probably won't because it is seriously boring. Yawn. If I wanted to deal with microaggressions all day, I'd get a corporate job. Right now, your job is to sit quietly and listen.

"All Black people commit crimes" is an obviously erroneous statement. More factually we can say, "all criminals commit crimes." In the USA, are a lot of them Black? Convicted ones, yeah. I'm sure the racial disparity would even out if there was literally any incentive to prosecute white-collar crime, or if all my niggas could afford fancy lawyers who make problems disappear, or if there was no prison-industrial complex designed to enslave as many Black people as possible, criminal or not, and permanently strip them of their voting rights. But that's not what this essay is about.

My point is that race is not indicative of behaviour. Black people are just born Black, and whether or not we commit any crimes comes down to our character and our circumstances. Race is a trait. Crime is a behaviour.

Transgender idealogy posits that you are born with an intrinsic gender identity. Ostensibly, whether that internal identity matches your physical sex is just luck of the draw. This internal identity manifests only in the ways that each person chooses to express it. It's a choice. Maybe an emotionally-charged one, but you do get to choose! Nobody is hold you at gunpoint when you look in your closet, wondering if today you should wear pants or a skirt. Arguably, autogynephiles must go to the greatest (and often most nefarious) lengths than most to acquire their fetish costumes, and work up a lot of courage before revealing their sexual fantasies to others.

Do you see what I'm getting at? Sex is a trait. Gender is a behaviour, as is making your fetish your entire life, to the point where you threaten suicide if people hesitate to participate.

So no, not all Black people are thugs, but all "transwomen" are self-obsessed, mentally ill, and sexually abusive by definition. That's what it means to "be," i.e. behave as, a trans-identified man. Maybe autogynephiles are born sexually defective, but they choose how they deal with it. They must be held accountable for abuse perpetrated in the name of "being trans." They are responsible for their actions. They do not need (or even deserve) to be catered to. They will not drop dead if you call them "sir," deny them entry to women's-only groups, call out their inherent misogyny, or remind them they are and always will be MEN. In my opinion, the worst men of all!

Are they all rapists? Whether or not an individual has physically assaulted a real person in real life, their culture idealises rape. Their trans-identity relies upon crossing sexual boundaries with unwilling, coerced, and oblivious women and girls just like you and me. The only way for a "transwoman" to not be sexually abusive is if he informs everyone that, when you call him by his new name and pronouns, it gives him an erection, and sexual titillation is the driving force behind his request. Would you still play along? Are they still "just pronouns" then? Or is it sexual fucking harassment, masquerading as accomodation?

Are they all ugly? Yes! Stop lying to yourself about how good they look. If they're "stunning," it's because they've just gobsmacked you with unbridled hideousness, and you are scrambling for a compliment when your mind can only scream, RUN! You are not shallow to find them ugly. That's an instinctive recoil from the obviously dangerous and diseased. And if you are a lesbian, like I am, there is nothing wrong with your sexuality— your homosexuality. "Homo" meaning same, meaning same sex. Lesbians are real women, real female people with real vaginas, exclusively interested in comparable people. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to see that a man, no matter how he dresses up or what he calls himself, cannot fit into that equation.

"But Flonne! What About Intersex Conditions? You're Being SO Ableist Right Now!"

I do not speak for the intersex community and I do not aspire to. Whether or not they ally with the transgender cult is their business. I can see why they would— transgender "rights" have gotten more attention in the past ten years than disability rights have gotten in the past fifty. The trans cult is backed by billions of dollars— primarily from autogynephiles, but still. Personally, I have never heard anything about intersex conditions unless it was tacked on to something-something transgender-whatever. If you want visiblity and no-questions-asked sympathy, whether as an individual or as a larger group, "being trans" or at least trans-adjacent is an obvious strategy during this social climate.

Is it a good strategy? Again: not my choice to make. I would only like to ask you to spot the difference between these two profiles of people.

One is born a physically healthy baby boy. Another is born with ambiguous genitalia, abnormal chromosomes, and/or a hormonal disorder, which doctors and parents immediately begin "correcting" through surgeries and medications that a child, much less an infant, cannot consent to.

The first, usually during puberty, decides that he would like to dress and act in a feminine way because it excites him sexually. The second has been living as a woman or girl for her entire life because, before she could even comprehend the situation she was in, adults decided she would.

The first, a man with a trans-identity, demands we redefine womanhood to include him because it fulfills his fetish, reinforces his grandiose delusions, and garners him special attention. There is no greater power trip for him. This is his ultimate sexual fantasy. The second, a person with a rare medical condition, requests we redefine womanhood to include her because she needs people to be compassionate to her trauma. She needs the chance to assert that she was not "born wrong" and champion for other children with similar circumstances.

Am I crazy, or do these people have almost nothing in common? And didn't we learn earlier that autogynephiles actually covet the medical trauma of intersex people? It's their fantasy to be innocent, coerced, transformed by authority figures with magic or science to "become" female. That sentence probably gave the AGP reading a boner, assuming his porn addiction has yet to result in erectile dysfunction. Needless to say, if someone is turned on by your trauma, they are not compassionate to it. The only fuck they give about you is the fuck they are fantasising about, envious of your pain, hating you because you had the "privilege" to suffer.

"Flonne... Does this mean you're a TERF?"

Well, TERF is a slur! They'll tell you that it stands for "trans-exclusive radical feminist," but really it means "any woman I disagree with" or perhaps "any woman I want to see harassed." But for all intents and purposes: yes. Does that mean you have to hate me now? That's your choice. You can wake up to the truth that "transwomen" are nothing more than abusive, mentally ill men at any time.