"Depression........."

written 2024, Aug 16

Sans... i feel weird and tired all the time.

Yeah, kiddo... That's what i'd expect from someone with your condition.

My condition?

Yup. You forget sometimes, but youre really sick. You have a disease that basically eats holes in your brain. Symbolically, anyway.

And... it makes me tired...

Yeah. And scared, sad, ashamed... It's really draining. You've spent your whole life like this, too, kid. You barely know what it's like to be healthy.

And yet... I keep beating myself up...

Hey, hey. Are you about to beat yourself up for beating yourself up?? That's kinda messed up. It's okay. i forgive you. That's part of your condition, too.

Yeah. I feel ashamed and I react with... um... violence against myself.

Par for the course, kiddo. It just is what it is. But you can do things differently sometimes, yknow? You can come talk to me, or go play with your friends. Being with people who love you helps a lot.

Sans...

Yeah? You want some love?

Yeah. Please?

Alright. C'mere. Lemme give you kisses, cute thing.

Hehe...

There we go. There's my favourite smile.

Sans... do you like us being this way?

You mean me taking care of you?

Yuh huh... do you like it?

Yeah, sweetheart. I love it. It, uh... it feels really good when you depend on me.

Really?

Yep. You know how youre just itching to take care of your friends? I feel that way a lot, too.

That doesn't surprise me. You are very generous...

Heh. You flatter me, kid. I just think of it as... helping out. Cuz if I don't, who will? It's called "being responsible."

I dunno anything about that...

Really? "Anything" is a strong word, kiddo. I don't think that's true.

Youre right... I can be responsible sometimes. I try hard to be nice to my friends. If i have an appointment, i try hard to make it there on time.

Yeah, those are good examples. Can you gimme one more?

Hmm... I'm being responsible when I ask you for help. When... I don't hurt myself and I let you take care of me.

That's right. You're being responsible for yourself and your own life.

Sans...

Shhh. C'mere, don't cry...

Thirsty...

Alright. Flonne needs water.

Hungry...

And Flonne needs food. Howzabout we polish off the strawberry yogurt?

Mmmm... okay. It's such a nice rainy morning.

Yeah. Peaceful, huh?

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